Life is STILL meaningless?

Just read back my old post and I think I can write some review on them.

The first post I've read is "Life is meaningless" posted on 17 April 2008.
Link: http://pillowmist.blogspot.com/2008/04/life-is-meaningless.html

Wow~~~so my blog is now 6 years old?

Em hmmm~~~~back to topic.

In this post I've mention what we plan to be when we growth up. Becca want to be a nurse but end up studying agriculture at Sabah; I want to be in Bio field but end up studying Accounting in UTAR and currently are more interested in business field; Cai Ling is now studying ACCA in Sunway.

It is a big different from what we plan last time.

In the older post, I do mention about Quek found his talent, which is dancing, although now he had quit it and I didn't found my. After 6 years, I still haven't found my. It is sad. T^T

Now my hours and days switch from comic and anime to online game and Chinese novel. Back to the world, nothing I have gain and it make things worst.

Last time, while I'm reading comic and watching anime, I'm at least have different ideas which inspire from the comic and anime and it allow me to write some interesting novels or stories and kept my brain activated. I'm watching anime on AXN channel or the Animax channel which is in English subtitle. It unconsciously help me to practice my English.

Now, addicted to online game didn't help me to activate my brain and I felt like my brain had become more and more rusty. Chinese novel and anime which downloaded online are all in Chinese. Moreover study in UTAR, a total Chinese society, it just make me lost the opportunity to be in touch with English!

Now, my English pronunciation are sucks! I can't even speak a proper sentence! I've mess up my basic! Past tense, verbs, nouns.....I can't even make up a full sentence.

It just make me want to cry......

Perform bad in academic had make me lost my opportunity to get a job (in future). Some more, perform bad in an interview (my sucks English)......As I said, it just make things worst.

Today, life is still meaningless?

I think my life is aimless....and a piece of shit....

I want to play The Sims!

I'm bored playing online games.

And now, I wish I can play some offline games.

Thus, I've go to search for some PS1 game which I can play with my PC.

But it end up I can stand on the PS1 poor graphic.

Later on, the facebook game---Social Life inspire me!

It remind me the game----The Sims!  

And now, I'm craving to play it!

Just hope that I can find a download source and success to install it.

Recommend to all of you---Puzzle Fitghter, one of my favourite PS1 game.

You can play it online by clicking the link below:
http://game-oldies.com/play-online/super-puzzle-fighter-ii-turbo-capcom-cps-2#

现在上瘾的是online game

现在我在玩的online game是balde and sword,《剑灵》而且还是中国服务器。在这之前我玩的是dragon nest,《龙之谷》不过是SEA server。DN我玩了有４年左右 而且还invest了RM100进去。想想当初还是看到becca玩 然后觉得graphic很美 所以就试看玩。玩了以后才发现原来quek也在玩。最后全部人都没玩了 可我还在玩 还拉我的roommate，shermaine陪我玩。

然后当我们玩厌DN时 剑灵上市了。 graphic，function什么的都比DN新 又有趣 所以 我们跳槽了。可是 我们可说是遇到很多波折 其中最大原因是因为是外国服务器 所以很lag。有时 甚至是卡到进不到游戏 或者attack 出招什么的都出现massive delay。所以 shermaine不玩了。

嘛~~~~其实也是因为shermaine毕业了 然后她家没unifi 然后要担心下未来前途什么的。。。所以就这样咯。结果我现在是没guild 没friend 自己solo到底。

然后 悲剧来了！

因为我是那种 只顾leveling和做quest的人 所以weapon enhancement，accessories这些 到后面高level时才发现没做 然后很需要 可是又不会。。。简直是OMG的悲剧！

老妹说 "玩game比较不会沉迷" 我觉得这个说法不对 因为现在的游戏 又是签到 又是每日任务。像shermaine:"不行， 我还没有做这个 我还没有做那个 我还不可以offline " 这样 那样的情况。

然后我有时也跟着被影响 比如说 "看~~~shermaine还在玩啊 那么我也玩吧！"然后就很迟睡什么的。所以说 我是个很没有自制力的人。

明年shermaine不在了 希望我可以早睡 还有不被影响到一个不会小心打game打到太over。。。

然后我刚刚发现 玩剑灵 我也有轻微的 "这个没做完 那个没做完 我不能offline"的symptoms。

惨了。。。

而且还刚认识了人 可能会被加进guild。。。我能不能够control自己呢？

如果没认识那个人 我明天开始就直接stop了！呜呜~~~为什么这么刚好啊？现在怎么办啊？