Life is meaningless?

Today Becca ask me what I want to be when I grow up. Har? Well maybe something related to Bio or Chemistry such as ……cosmetics industry?

Becca said she was interested to become a nurse while Tifa said she hasn’t decided yet. Yap, this can be considering as still a long time for us to make a decision. You can decide it after Form 5 or 6.

At night, I watch an anime at animax --- La Corda D’oro Primo Passo, you can also call it The Golden String or Kin’iro no Corda. It is about a music academy, a girl with great talent had been discovering by a spirit and ‘force’ her to enter the school music competition.


La Corda D'oro Primo Passo / The Golden String / Kin'iro no Cardo

All of the characters in the anime have great talent in different instrument. These remind me one of my friends --- Wilson. He found his talent last year, which is dancing. Recently, he won the competitions, which held at Taylor College. He now spends all of his mind and heart in it. I admire him because I can’t found my talent.

What am I good at?

I’m no good in sports or academic… I even donno what I like. Spending hours and days at comic and anime then when I’m back to the world, nothing I have gain.

These remind me the poem we read in Form 1,The Life Breath Candle. Life is meaningless. What are we living for?

A friend of my class said this in the morning:” As a sin, why we need to do so many essay? (He didn’t finish his homework) As a sin, why we need to take exam? (Exam is around the corner)

Why? Why? Why?

Why are we going to do all of this? What is it for? Even for those who work hard to gain something, who knows the next second you are involved in an accident, then you DIE. You get NOTHING!!!

Just felt that life is meaningless, aimless, hollow and nothing else…

Victory For Green House Marching

Today is our school sport day and guess what? We need to gather at school at 5.00a.m. which mean I need to wake up at 4 (cry~ I want to sleep sleep la!!!) Why soooo early and there was heavy rain. Sunday + early morning + heavy rain = cold day + good sleep. I suppose to hide in the bed and have a nice sleep but it was all destroyed by the sport day.

Actually yesterday last training, we green house marching had a small disturbance. I was still worrying will this affect today performance. This disturbance didn’t affect us but raise our semangat! I’m so glad…

Our senior let us watch the video after the marching. What can I say?

Fo-you ~ GOOD!!!

It was hundred times better then our usual training especially the hormat that part so neat and so YENG!!!

Our seniors then ask us how can we do so. Our reply is “ Because something inside tell us that is it the time.” …ZA DOU!!!

Anyway, another year Victory For Green House Marching!!! This is the 4th continuous years we get the first place. We then run half round of the field (Only form 4 member because form 5 are ‘old’ liao).

So glad that we get victory again hope that next year we can also the 1st place again. Then 5 years continuous for victory.

Having “Qing Ming” at my Kampong – Bentong

Today is “Qing Ming” but many had already come to clean their ancient’s tomb last weekend. SO it seem a bit quiet and desolate clear this year.

Actually for me “Qing Ming” = to picnic. Emm… for every modern people right? Because when we get up the hill where the tomb is, there has many delicious food such as ‘bazang’, ‘pau’ and fruits. The most important is… many candles to eat…just kidding!!!
There got good view.

My cousin and me will take this opportunity gather and talk idly. When our parents finish putting the food and light up the candle, we then bow 3 times and it’s over.

For my family, we have 3 round to go.1st round is the good view up at the hill (this cost us to wake up at 5a.m.); 2nd is at the same hill but at the bottom; lastly is my grandfather’s tomb which we need to take 5 minute car drive (the first 2 can just walk to reach) and bring so many water and brush to wash clean up the tomb.

I want to take a few photos but I forget to bring my phone. After thinking, it seems like this location is not that suitable for taking picture. (Swt, I don’t want to any see strange things appear on the photo – got extra hand on your shoulder?)

Any way, this year’s “Qing Ming” is not that fun because less firework and people. Hope that next year this situation won’t happen again. Hope for many firework, many people, and many food…and candles…(^_^)

Actually I Can't Make A Fast Decision

Actually I’m the kind of people who always say words opposite to my heart. SO I normally will not promises someone requires at the first time, that guy had to ask me a few more time then I will give him/her the answer from the bottom of my heart.

Not because I’m arrogant but I just can’t make a decision. I have to think whether I can really carry it out or not…but this normal end up other taught that I say NO to them.

I DON’T MEAN THAT!

Not only my friends but also same as my family. Example just now my parents ask me whether I want to have dinner with them at outside. Emm…. First it was raining; second I’m not really that hungry yet; third they haven’t decided what to eat…so should I go with them?

They ask me for twice but I can’t actually give them an actual answer. Just as I’m hesitating, they take the answer as NO and left me at home. I try to catch up with them but when I went to the car park the car had already gone (I live at condo).

SO I end up with no dinner and alone at home…

OMG, I can hear the strange sound coming out from my stomach. (I’m HUNGRY!)

SO make sure next time if you want an answer from me, please ask me a few more times and give me some time to make my decision.

wAndeRing My CryiNg soul,
oNly you CAn wIpe awAy my tEars,
teArs fall, VanIsh to tHe light.